Tuesday, March 4, 2014

Sometimes...

Having you here with us has been pretty amazing, Sophie.  But I have to be honest.  It has also been so hard at times.

In the beginning I just worried about everything - were you eating enough?  Was that cough okay?  Were you pooping enough?  Were you sleeping too much?  What was that spot on your stomach?



As those worries subsided one by one and we got to know each other better, things seemed to get somewhat easier.  But it was (and is) still hard.  There are still never-ending things to worry about and I constantly question whether I'm doing things right. 


It was really hard when Mommy first went back to work.  You were fine, but I missed having her here.  Since then you and I have found our stride and have a better schedule that helps both of us figure out what we're doing day to day.  



You sometimes get your days and nights mixed up which is hard on Mama since I don't sleep well during the day, but together we're figuring out how to balance enough naps with enough wake time during the day so that you'll sleep most of the night.


You continue to be such a good baby - rarely crying, sleeping 5-8 hours a night, and basically just being content with life - but that doesn't mean that figuring out this parenting thing and knowing what to do comes easily all the time...I'm sure the worry and fear is common with lots of new parents, and I find some comfort in knowing that.  


I wake up each morning knowing I will try my best, knowing that I love you more than I ever thought possible and knowing that with each passing day I am becoming more confident.  While being a parent will never be easy, it has become decidedly easier and less frightening over the past few weeks.  This truly is an adventure, and I'm happy that I get to explore it together with you and Mommy.

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