Warning: Complaining Ahead

Wow it's been awhile since I wrote.  So much for writing at least once a week.

Truthfully, I have thought about writing several different times over the past few weeks, but I've been so tired and cranky and feeling pretty much awful that I just never felt like I had anything good to say.  I would start to write something and think "wow, that's negative," delete it, and move on to doing something else.  The thing is, I have always felt that there is this pressure out there to constantly be happy and glowing during pregnancy.  Rarely, if ever, have I heard pregnant women complain about how absolutely crappy they feel.  All. The. Time.  Since being pregnant, however, whenever I say "I am sooo tired" or "everything hurts" women who have experienced pregnancy tend to fall right into "me too!" or "pregnancy was the worst."  It's almost like they just wait for someone to give them permission to complain.

Well, I say enough.  I'm not going to wait for permission.  I'm just going to say it.  Pregnancy sucks.  The wretched insomnia (whose only purpose seems to be to torture me), the body aches, the carpal tunnel, the tendinitis (I never thought I would look so longingly at a bottle of off-limits ibuprofen...I hereby promise to NEVER take ibuprofen for granted again), the heartburn and indigestion (ditto on not taking Pepto for granted anymore), the swollen ankles (and hands), the "morning sickness" that never really goes away...the list could go on and on.

I know in the end it will all be worth it, but right now, I'm not thrilled.  And I know it's just going to get worse over the next 10 weeks.  Which doesn't really help.  Especially when I'm going on 1-2 hours of sleep a night.  While I'm all for being positive and focusing on the end result (despite all the bad stuff, I really am excited!), I also think it's important to remember the actual experience.  Which includes the aches, the pains, the discomfort, and the complaining (sorry Kristin!).

Now hopefully I can move on to writing about more exciting and happy things like the nursery, the insanely active child inside of me, and pregnancy pictures!